Whew, Finally

After two months of this:

I'm really happy about this:

In February I got positive ovulation tests on Day 13 and Day 14 of my cycle on two different kinds of tests. Admittedly in March I slacked off on peeing on my stick on the days I was suppose to and so I never really knew when I had ovulated. Then, in April when I didn't ovulated by like day 16-17 in my cycle I freaked out. I just assumed I'd missed it. Then my overly dramatic side started assigning reasons to the negatives: maybe it has something to do with the abnormal pap, maybe I'm not ovulating for some reason, … maybe I'm pregnant! Even though I was 99% sure that latter wasn't the case, since I do keep up with everything pretty thoroughly. 

This month, I decided not to buy another ClearBlue yet and just test the cheap ones. So, I started peeing on them every morning from Day 5 in my cycle like I'm suppose to. Day 13 came and past, Day 14 came and past and I started freaking out again. But, I'd decided I was going to pee on one of those stupid sticks everyday until my next cycle started! And if I never received a positive then I'd allow myself to really freak out. Especially since the first trying month is next month!

Anyway, today, I got the two really clear lines! Whew. On Day 17 of my cycle. In February I got positives two days in a  row. Maybe that'll be the case this month too!

Can you believe next month I start trying to conceive?! It's so surreal. I'm pretty sure, even with all my planning, it's going to be surreal for a while. Hope things work out for us!

Lord, bless our efforts and planning! And breathe a new, healthy, beautiful, little life into ours.