Exhaustion

I stuck my foot in my mouth when I mentioned that I haven't really been feeling exhausted, just sleepy. 

I shot an outdoor wedding today, which would have been about perfect if it hadn't been so hot and humid, and it's even much cooler today than it's been being. Still, it was very uncomfortable. 

Not only that, but I did the terrible thing of missing lunch! (don't yell) To add to that, my breakfast was two donuts! Gah! Poor, Lovebug! I've got to take better care of you!

It just felt like a very rushed morning with getting ready for the wedding and all. 

I just hate that the lovely couples special day happen to be taking place outside. For three hours! Whew. Lovebug was spent, and so was I! I'm hardcore too. I'm always on the edge of a jog every time I move, I squat and stoop and bend and lay on the ground and usually climb on things (but the co-owners wouldn't let me climb on anything today ;). 

I could feel myself getting super dehydrated all afternoon. I tried to make sure I drank, but weddings are always so quick it's like impossible to squeeze in a water break.

After only being there like an hour I started to feel a little dizzy. At the two hour mark I wasn't sure I'd be able to go on (I know that sounds dramatic, but I was so freaking tired!). I was hungry, thirsty, fatiguing, and completely exhausted. 

When our time frame was up, I was packing up and ready to go!

I zombied into the house without speaking to the hubs and went straight to my bed. I laid there in wonderful silence for a half hour before even getting up to eat something. Then, I finally worked up the energy to peel off my sweat soaked clothes and take an amazing hot shower. 

I've pretty much lounged around since then. 

I feel really bad about today though. It made me really realize that my body isn't just my own anymore. I mean, I know that's obvious, but today it really hit. I have a tiny, fragile, little ball of cells trying to grow in there. My baby. My carelessness, is disappointing. I think about the way that I feel and wonder how much that impacts my precious baby. If I'm hot and tired and hungry and thirsty and dizzy and completely exhausted… then I'll bet he/she feels some of that too :(  Poor, baby!

I've never before felt exactly like this in my life. I'm just so completely worn out. I have no energy at all. It's weird to feel this lethargic. 

Alright, LB, we've got some calories in us and we're gonna relax for the rest of the day! Mommy loves you bunches and me and Daddy will do a better job making sure you're getting everything you need to grow and be healthy! <3